July 11, 2012 § Leave a comment
Failure. A joke. A virtual impossibility.
While all of that comes to mind, I’m trying not too look at it that way.
I decided that I wanted to run a 5k in September, approximately one year from the point where I was at my worst, when I was struggling to even walk.
It all sounded fine and dandy… that is until I started actually training. I had a whole plan. I bought an app, because you know, there’s an app for that. It supposed to take you from the couch to running a 5k in 8 weeks. I figured I already had a head start since I had been working out and was already off the figurative couch.
The first week seemed pretty simple. 5 minute walking warmup, run 60 seconds, walk 90 seconds, repeat 8 times, 5 minute walking cool down. It sounds simple enough. Only 8 minutes of actual running. I mean, who can’t do that, right?
Well, in short, this girl.
The first day, I struggled, but I made it through and I did okay. The second day, I noticed that my left foot was dragging just a little bit, but I still made it. The third day, on my fourth interval run, my left foot was dragging and I eventually fell. I was able to direct myself into the grass and thankfully, I didn’t get any scraped knees.
Today, I decided to back off the intensity and give myself something that I could accomplish safely. Same warm up and cool down but only 30 second running followed by 90 seconds of walking. Long story short… I bit the dust, or concrete to be more exact. Scraped knee, hands and all.
I’m frustrated. Upset and even a little angry. Logically, I know how far I’ve come and I’m grateful for all of the progress that I have made. But I still can’t help but to feel that I’ve already failed before I’ve really even started. I mean, It was the easiest running workout possible, right? I know everyone has off weeks, but there is still a fear in the back of my head that I might be beginning to have a relapse… and Lord, I hope that’s not the case. Time will tell, but I’ll be upping my smoothies and making sure to get all of my herbs in!
I don’t know if it’s possible for me to run an entire 5k in September. And if I had to guess, I would lean more towards the probably not side. But, regardless of whether or not I will be walking, running, or a combination of the two, I’m still planning on doing the Popcorn Festival in some sort of fashion. If I am unable to run this one, maybe I’ll be able to run another one a little further in the future… I don’t know, but I sure hope so.