Friends on My Shoulders…
July 14, 2011 § 1 Comment
Yesterday just might have been the hardest day for me yet. I battled with myself for most of the day against none other than my arch nemesis, Graters Cookies and Creme Ice Cream. I felt like a pregnant lady fighting a severe craving. I guess the major difference was I didn’t feel the need to combine pickles and tomato juice with it (or whatever you all crave).
I could almost feel the weight of the little angel and devil perching on my shoulder. The arguments between the two were endless.
You could go and get a pint from Kroger. The credit card statement would just say Kroger, Brandon (my husband) wouldn’t know what you bought.
Do you really want to sacrifice the week you just completed?
How much could it really hurt you? Your taking a ton of probiotics. It’s just one time.
Do you really want to see if nutrition will cure MS?
I could go on. Like I said, the thoughts were endless! In the end, I am proud to say that I didn’t go to Kroger and buy a pint, nor did I go through the Graters drive through for a double scoop.
Sometimes it feels really hard to stick with something that you don’t know for sure if it is working. All I know is I really want some real food and my MS symptoms are progressing. Right now my entire left arm is week and muscle control and coordination are proving to be quite difficult. I’m pretty sure I would fail the sobriety test where you have to touch your nose.
All in all, I have only been doing this nutrition thing for a little over a week. I was on my Rebif shots for over three months, which I realize isn’t a lifetime by any means. But, in spite of being on the shots for over three months, I still had symptoms that were coming back and new ones that were developing while being on therapy. So, I’m not sure how well it was working either. I have only been off of my therapy for two weeks now. Six missed shoots. The only new symptom that has developed within those two weeks of no therapy has been the symptoms involving my left hand.
There has been numerous studies done on each of the different MS therapies and the results are touted by the doctors and the pharmacy companies themselves. Point blank, not much research has been done on the effects of nutrition and MS. Dr. Roy Swank began researching in the area of nutrition had reportedly had amazing results. There have been claims by the pharmaceutical companies that his results could not be duplicated, however I haven’t been able to find the medical journals that show these studies.
All in all, I have to try. I literally have to tell myself this everyday. How long will it take to reach recovery? I have no idea. I hoping sooner rather than later… We are on day 9. 21 to go.
Talk to you all soon,