One Step Forward, Two Steps Back
June 4, 2011 § 1 Comment
First off, sorry Terry.
I told myself when starting this blog that I was going to post everything… both good and bad. I want this blog to be a fairly accurate account of this journey for a couple of reasons. First of all, so I can remember what has happened and how far I have come, and secondly, so if someone with MS would stumble upon this site, they can see how diet has affected my life, good or bad.
With that precursor… I should say, that I um… errr… sigh. I cheated today.
I should back up and start at the beginning.
I have just gone through my first few days of this detox and so far, I can’t say that it has been the easiest thing that I have ever done. But, I suppose that a complete countercultural lifestyle change shouldn’t be expected to be easy…
I started this all on Wednesday. A detox diet of bone broth and green smoothies… yummy, right? I was warned that I may experience some headaches, aching and other crappy symptoms as my body rids itself of all of the toxins that it has been storing for who knows how long.
I am a little nervous to go off of my MS therapy medication which I need to do in order to go a completely holistic route. So, long story short, I decided to take my shot on Wednesday. Although, I took it without ibuprofen in order to be a little more healthy. (Ibuprofen manages the shots side effects of flu like symptoms.) In addition to no ibuprofen, I took my shot on a fairly empty stomach, while starting a detox. I can’t even begin to tell you how miserable that was. Seriously. I don’t think I left my bed for two days. Wednesday night through Friday morning. I felt as if I had the worst version of the flu that you can have, without any medication to make it better. However I made it through. I was pretty proud of myself for sticking with it, even when I felt awful.
And then, it happened. The unthinkable. Graters Ice Cream… And Panera. Sigh, I am so disappointed in myself. Seriously.
Cheated sounds like such a dirty word with awful connotations. Maybe this is because nothing good seems to come out of cheating. At least in the long term. Maybe this is why I am terrible at spelling… because I cheated at a good number of my grade school spelling tests (sorry mom). And why I can’t speak Spanish even remotely well.
I want to get well so badly and I do believe that diet has a huge part to do with that… so why is this so hard. “Just say no,” right? Sounds easy enough… Tomorrow is a new day with a new set of decisions. To borrow a little bit of Aerosmith, I’m back in the saddle again.
Any prayers and well wishes are greatly appreciated…
Until next time,